New look, new start?

Well, the blog is getting a new look, at least. I, on the other hand, am still getting used to having black hair instead of purple, even though it's been a month now, and I'm not really ready to step out of my comfort zone within my wardrobe, which consists of so much black and gray that I really ought to be in a band or something.

I'm not really sure that there are any new starts happening; at least, no sweeping changes. I'm working on some things, like getting health care coverage so that I can get back on a few vital medications, and finding a night job so that I can have a positive cash flow again now that I'm completely tapped.

I'm also, on a larger scale, trying to figure out what I want to do and who I want to be, now that I know and love who I am. I have vague senses and even certainties of things: I've always wanted to be a mom, and that will probably never change (whether or not I ever actually manage to ditch my little sister long enough to miraculously find someone to have sex -- let alone a long-term, meaningful relationship -- with, again in my lifetime) and I am beginning to get the ever-more distinct impression that my future will include music, in some rather important way.

Beyond that, there is so much left to shape and decide that it tends to get a bit overwhelming, but at the same time I'm eager to move on and get started. It's hard to remember to take baby steps, even when I'm terrified to budge.